Mercies, not trials

This song breaks me down so watch me break it down!

Blessings by Laura Story


We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family
Protection while we sleep
We pray for healing
For prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand
to ease our suffering


I pray for all of these things every. single. night.

And all the while
You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things


That last line really gets me and as a parent, I finally GET it...

Cuz what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know you’re near
What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?


I will say with 100% certainty that God does heal through tears... many, many tears

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near


I have cried in anger many times... and every single time I've been wrong. He's been near.


We doubt Your goodness
We doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough


Why isn't it enough? Seriously, Sarah...

And all the while
You hear each desperate plea

So thankful!

Lord, that we’d have faith to believe

Cuz what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know you’re near

Then bring on that thousand...

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us


They do... it sucks...


When darkness seems to win


Or when I just seem to "let" it win


We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not
This is not our home


I can't wait until my "home" includes all of my children. I am so thankful that this world is not the end!

Cuz what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know you’re near

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?


I have found that there is SO MUCH that this world can't satisfy


And what if trials of this life
The rain
The storms
The hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise


I often forget to give praise in the hard times. I get so caught up in me and my pain that I don't look for the lessons I'm being taught. Looking back now, I can see that the trials I have experienced thus far in my life are nothing compared to what some deal with. My trials are my life lessons and my MERCIES that GOD has given to me!

7 years ago today I experienced the worst day of my life. While the memories of that day aren't as sharp as I wish they were, the emotions are still so real. I don't hurt as bad as I once did and I can honestly look back now and see SO many of God's mercies given to me during the hardest period of my life. I love knowing that I WILL see Zachary again some day. That alone gives me so much hope and I am thankful to serve a God that promises me an eternity with ALL of my kiddos!