Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Filled

What. A. Weekend.

I attended my very first women's retreat through my church and I was just blown away. There were so many things that I was desperately seeking from God and didn't really know "how" to obtain them. He filled my heart so completely this weekend and I spent much of the time just crying out and asking him to teach me.

You see, I've been a Christian since I was 5. I was raised in a Christian home and was in church 3 times a week. I had great examples for parents and had a lot of other amazing role models in my life. However, I still strayed. For a long time. And I'm finding that I STILL have a hard time finding my way back. I know all the right answers... I know what I'm looking for... I'm just struggling with the relationship and the FULL commitment. I can now say that I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not going to let anyone hold me back - and the person that was holding me back the most was myself. Self - quit standing in my way!!

I connected with a lot of women that I had never met before and I was fortunate enough to be able to see into a portion of their souls and to open my own soul up to them. Being vulnerable was a fantastic feeling. Sharing my fears and finding out that I'm not alone was so refreshing. Getting into very deep conversations with fantastic women was stimulating.

I know I will still struggle at some things - it's not going to be an easy thing - but I'm ready to take it on. I'm ready to face the world of critics knowing that I know the real answer. I want to be able to share my Jesus with other people and not be afraid.

Please pray for me!

2 comments:

Shannon said...

You know you are in my prayers :) I'm so excited for you! I love you mucho!

Angie said...

That is so amazing! I think it is soooo important (let me add some more ooooooo's) to have good strong relationships with fellow woman of God. I know how thankful I am to have that strong support system under me!
I pray that this feeling never leaves you and that from this moment on you can only grow deeper!
<3